INTO THE CENTRE AND BEYOND
I move to the centre of the circle with my breath and my awareness,
with my steady focus,
dropping, arriving, becoming fully present.
Breath arriving at the centre of the circle,
into the unknown.
At the surface, it seems like just a point in the circle…
But as I move towards it and through it,
it becomes unknown and so vast.
Steady focus with my breath…
I move into it and through the centre and into the void
and behind the circle, in the emptiness,
a world opens up to me,
instinctual, beyond words, ancient, sensual
And I stay with my breath and steady focus…
not holding onto anything,
just riding the wave of my awareness,
with no fixed idea of where I am going…
and it does not matter.
Only now matters… and my breath.
I rest my hands on the place that needs healing…
no words, no thoughts…
Hands resting… breath… awareness,
bringing awareness and breath into that place,
feeling it, feeling into… it comes alive, warm,
it expands, vibrates,
receives, opens, releases…
Space opens up…
(7 June 2015)
FORGETTING AND REMEMBERING
Forgetting and remembering…
The pain of forgetting helps me wake up to remembering.
When I forget who I truly am and I become a robotic do-er,
disconnected from my heart and always in a rush,
the pain is so intense…
that being in this place for any length of time, becomes unbearable.
I am grateful for the forgetting,
because it wakes me up to the remembering.
Efficiency at the expense of my heart, is no longer an option for me.
Closing my heart to protect me from pain, is no longer possible.
Being who I am is my purpose
and any time I move away from this,
I am reminded by the pain I feel.
A heart open,
a vessel of God’s love…
joyful, open, soft, at ease, moving more slowly through my life,
deeply connected to my essence…
doing effortlessly from this state of being
I am in service…
And God reigns supreme!!
( 26 March 2015 )
THE COSMOS IN A TEACUP
I used to say and feel this:
‘how can you put the cosmos into a tea cup?’
trying to explain who I am and what I do.
But now, the cups are shattering and breaking…
dreams tell me that a room is no longer big enough to contain my energy
so that the other can breathe and move.
She now needs to move into a bigger space, or even go outside
so that she can expand unencumbered.
More of me and deep roots growing through my body, the dance,
this community… taking the next step
feeling called to hold my own circle.
I am a little afraid and yet, I have tasted the exhilaration
of stepping onto the dance floor of my life and claiming my space
and my presence, trusting my offering, which of course, is of God, from God,
in service to God.
I keep listening for how God wants me to create this circle
and how it can live and come alive
so that the deep work of healing to wholeness can take place.
It is these qualities that speaks to me:
The quality of space,
I keep listening…
(13 April 2016)
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM YOURSELF?
I expect to awaken fully to who I am
and live who I am in a way that makes a significant difference
in my life and in the lives of others.
I expect myself to keep evolving, growing, transforming, awakening,
enjoying the richness and abundance and beauty of life.
I expect myself to love and be loved deeply,
in the most magnificent soulful way.
I expect myself to be healthy, vibrant, slim,
passionate, energetic, powerful, flexible,
to live a life full of magical experiences with magical people,
surrounded by a circle of deep friendships and love.
I expect myself to live a life of purpose and meaning,
expressing the fullness of my being in every moment
and thereby, touching the lives of others,
reminding them of, and awakening them to who they are.
I expect of myself to be always connected to my soul and divinity
and live in the flow of life,
taking guidance, through my heart and intuition
from soul and the Divine.
I expect myself to be and live mindfully, with awareness
and to keep bringing consciousness
to all the parts of me that are still asleep.
(11 January 2011)
IT WAS NEVER ABOUT YOU
My dear, precious, beautiful child…
Are you beginning to understand and see
that it was ever about you?
Are you beginning to realize
that she never withdrew her love from you,
even though it may have felt like that?
The truth is, she never stopped loving you… ever!
It was never about you.
It was about her and her own search for meaning and purpose,
It was about her desperate attempt
to deal with her own wounding and hurt and pain.
It was about her own despair and disillusionment
and nothing was ever your fault.
(5 July 2015)
COME CHILD, COME TO ME
Why don’t you rely on me when you are trying to cope,
rather than on coffee and tea and food?
Why do you not look for me when you feel anxious, bored,
stuck, frustrated, horrible in your body?
When you don’t feel like doing something that you need to do,
please… turn to me… I am always here for you and I will help you.
I am always here, waiting for you to come to me,
to rest yourself in me, in my love for you.
Come child… come to me… and I will give you rest…
Come to me child, and I will give you what you deeply long for,
that which nourishes your soul and deepest heart…
peace, stillness, equanimity, joy, ok-ness with what is…
Come now… be still… listen… do nothing…
I am waiting for you.
Come to me BEFORE you head out for the cliff and jump off it…
speak to me, tell me what you are feeling, cry me your tears…
share with me all that rests heavy in your heart
all that you are running away from, that you cannot be with…
share it with me… it is never too much for me…
and I can take it all… I can take all that you do not want to know and feel and hear.
I will wait here for you now.
I will be here for you forever…
(16 July 2013)